As the time is going by and I am faced with more and more challenges it is easier for me to reflect on the blessings that i have in my life.
Recently we were told that our baby is breached. For some women this wouldn't be a big deal, just get a c-section and be all done. My Heavenly Father made me in such a way that if I do end up having a c-section it might be the last time I could feel a baby inside of me.
I am happy to think that He has blessed me enough to allow me to get pregnant with Julia and Josh and now with this baby, but the thoughts that this might be the last time i can feel a baby moving inside of me are very saddening.
I admit I don't enjoy been pregnant, I hurt and it is just very unpleasant, but something happens when you are delivering that brand new baby and you feel that all your hard work paid off.
I am going to miss been awaken by a sudden pull or kick in my belly, or by those never-ending hiccups that just happen to intensify at night.
There have just been so many good memories about this pregnancies, even through the hardship of every single one of them, the bonding with each of my babies has meant the world to me and also knowing that my husband and I have created such a perfect creature together is been one of my greatest blessing of my life.
As I cried away my fears and frustration regarding this lately news, there was a sense of peace that overcame me and I just knew that the rest of our children were going to be able to find a way to our family.
I know they are waiting, I know who they are and it is a great honor to have the Spirit testify this into my heart and ease the sorrow.
I am a happier person than what I was a couple of weeks ago. I couldn't stop complaining about my misery of been confine to a couch, but at this time I am just enjoying every second I get to keep feeling this baby inside of me, contractions and everything. I am just grateful that he is continuing to grow healthy and strong. He'll get here soon enough.
2 comments:
Oh Gaby I feel so guilty when I read this I just wished I lived closer so I could come help you out, or just visit with you, so you are not so bored on the couch all the time.
I am so laughing at Julia's comment about going to see the graves, poor little dear can you just imagine what these kids think of this holiday going and putting flowers on what someone says is there grandpa, so confusing I am sure.
My heart aches for you, soon enough little Andrew will be here, just keep hanging in there, you are in our every prayer. We love you!
Don't worry Gaby! Everything is going to be fine. He could still turn or there could be another solution that we are not able to see yet. I'm glad that little Andrew isn't here just yet. We will see him soon enough!
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